Kindergarten

It is that time if year! School starts in just a few days and we are sending our little boy off to Kindergarten.  We attended orientation at his school earlier this week and he was able to see his desk, check out the classroom, and meet his new teacher. I am so excited for him and even more proud. Emory has worked so hard this year and has found his place at a fantastic school. I am so pleased with our decision to keep him at his current school for another year.  Time certainly does pass so quickly but I committed to staying in these moments.

Disappointment

Dealing with disappointment is just part of life, right?  Earlier this week, I had to deal with disappointment.  Something Nick and I had planned on came to a sudden halt.  And I have to say my emotions got the better of both of us for that day.  We were upset that our plan had been changed and to be honest that we had lost control of what would happen next.  So I did what any person would do. I sulked, cried, and sought counsel of good friends.  One of my good friends, A, sent me something that stuck with me and applies to dealing with any unexpected event. Day 1) Pity Party, Day 2) Whirl of Fixing, and Day 3)Acceptance.  I choose to takes those days in 24 hour increments and just as she said as I am entering Day 3 acceptance has set it.  You see this bump is only a bump.  It isn't the end of the world unless I allow it to be.  My blessings still far outweigh what I deserve and it the grand plan God knows what we need, when, and how.  So today I am at peace.  I am going to stop fretting and allow the plan to unfold because I believe with all sincerity I am not the one in control.   You have probably noticed that I never have said what the actual disappointment was and I won't because in the big picture it doesn't really matter.  What really matters is how we chose to respond.

I am going to stop trying to...

..be two people at one time.  You see since I became a mom nearly 5 years ago I have developed a bit of a split personality.  I have tried to be a stay at home mom and a working mom all rolled into one.  You can't do it! The result of this is an immense load of guilt when you feel as you are failing in one area or the other.  Let me clarify and say that my family is my priority over work but that does not mean I have to feel bad for giving an honest day's effort in the office or putting time into my career.  I recently read a totally enlightening article which talked about how all moms whether you stay home, work at home, or outside of the home have insecurities about the path they have choosen.  Everyone has hard days and feeling of guilt.  This article also explained that your child's ultimate happiness is connected to your happiness.  Mama is happy=kids are happy. GENIUS!

For me, this struggle to be two people at once has not benefited me or my family. In fact, the end result is an emotionally strained and exhausted mommy.  I truly believe God has placed me where I am for this season and I need to embrace it. No more comparisons, no more feeling less than another parent.  My husband and I work very hard to make a sure our children are well taken care of in all aspects.  Certainly, there is no shame in that.  I plan to flush of all of those negative messages of "mommy wars."  Motherhood and parenting is hard enough with adding any additional pressure on ourselves.

Summer is Summer

Leia has adopted a love of reading.  She loves to read book and have them read to her.  She will bring a book over to either her daddy or me and say, "Be book" with a slight inflection in her voice.   In 2 year old speak with is actually "read book?" Each night we read stack of board book and other books of her choosing.  Her favorite is a book called, " Summer is Summer."  I am not sure why she is drawn to it.  Maybe it is because she is a Summer baby.   It is a book that is short on words and gorgeous pictures.  It walks through all of the things we associate with the Summer season such as the beach, fireflies, and ice cream.  I love this book too because it reminds of all the things we should take time to enjoy during this time of year.  It is no secret that Fall is my favorite time of year but this year I have been careful not to wish away Summer.  The days are longer and you just feel relaxed.

Fall brings about the start of a new school year and Emory's first year of Kindergarten.  Nick will return to school for his program and soccer will start.  Sunday school classes will begin at Church and life just gets a little..well busier.  Now, don't get me wrong I will be doing my normal happy dance as the Fall decorations and scents roll out, the weather cools, Football starts, and the leaves begin to fall.  But for now, I am going to soak in all the scents, sights, and tastes that Summer has to offer.  I will leave you with a quote from Leia's favorite book.

"And that's how it goes when a rose is a rose, and Summer is Summer is Summer."