Heartache...

Have you ever loved someone so much it made your heart ache? I mean, you could physically feel your heart swelling with love? I have been blessed to have this feeling twice in my life. The first is with my love, NK, and the second is with my sweet baby boy.

I just received my latest http://www.babycenter.com/ update and it was for my 11 month old, week 3. Seriously? How did I get here? Wasn't it just a few months ago I was anxiously awaiting his arrival? The months has flown by like an amazing dream filled with every emotion possible. I can't help but wonder what I could have done better or if only I was a little more patient but then my better half, the one who I first loved, reminds me that I have done great. After shedding some tears tonight and grieving a little, I am ready to accept his words. I have done a great job and I am good mom although I may not be perfect. So as I lay down tonight to go to sleep I will cut myself some slack and be as kind to myself as I am to my other mom friends.

However, if you were to ask has it been worth it? Absolutely. Would I do it all over again? In a heart beat.

I love you, Emory Abram Kiernan.

Playgroup

The remodeling is just about complete! We just need to do the last finishing touches and of course decorate! I will post pictures sometime soon.

Amongst the chaos in our home over the weekend, Emory and I escaped to our monthly playgroup. My friend and I had discussed how difficult it was to find playgroups or classes that were offered at times that were convenient for working moms. So we decided to start our own! The concept it pretty simple, one Saturday a month a mama hosts either at her home or somewhere local the kiddos will enjoy. Last month we strolled to a tot lot for the kids to play, gave them free play time, and enjoyed lunch. This month it was water play in baby pools and another yummy lunch. The babies have a great time interacting with each other. Emory loves getting to see not only the other children but the other mamas as well and I think the mamas are forming bonds with the other children as well. A wonderful unintended consequence! For now we have 7 mamas and 8 babies (one set of twins) ranging from 5 to 16 months but I have every expectation that the group will continue to grow!

UPDATE

I am super excited because we are in the middle of doing some updates to our home! We have lived here a little over a year and there are some things that I have really wanted to do but didn't have the time or money to do before E arrived or since. So out of the blue a contractor who is a friend of a friend called us and was able to start the next day. The best part is that between the contractors' work and work we will do on our own, it should be completed before E's 1st Birthday! So my house is in complete choas and I couldn't be happier! Stay tuned for updates.

It's Been Awhile

It is hard to believe it is already August! The cliche "Time Flies" has never been truer for me since Emory's birth. I marvel each day that it doesn't seem like very long ago that I was anxiously awaiting to arrival of my sweet boy. As we inch closer to his 1st birthday, I continue to feel incredibly nostalgic. I am torn between sadness over how quickly he has grown and missing those early days yet I am excited for each new phase. Over the past few weeks he has been building confidence and taking steps and just last night he went for it! His is till in the early stages but he is walking. Agan, this leaves me with mixed emotions. I thought we had a little more time! We have really been enjoying this summer and spending quite a bit of time home as a family. Emory and I also helped found a working mother's playgroup! We had our first playdate last week. All in all life it pretty great. I hope to update this blog more often since I has been working on riding myself of other usless distractions!