Post Winter Self and Making a capsule

I am a wanna be minimalist. I still like stuff but I just go through phases where I want less.  Sometimes I attack toys, sometimes household stuff, but normally it is clothes.  In line with this minimalist mindset, I have always thought the idea of a capsule wardrobe would be great for me. I would look at lovely pins and think how cool they were but couldn't imagine how to get this out of my own clothes.  Yesterday, while getting ready for a Easter Egg hunt I was totally pissed off that my fresh out the dryer jeans made me look like a squeezed marshmallow (I might add I just bought these damn jeans and should have got a bigger size).  The adjustment to a few (more like 10ish) Winter pounds is causing me to feel not so great about some of the things in my closet. So after texting with my good friend, A, she offered me a a solution of doing a capsule wardrobe.  Now that is what I am talking about! Not only did she give me a solution but a project to distract my negative mind.  So after looking through some pins, I have decided on two work capsules and am working on one for my weekend attire because yoga pants and gym gear don't make me feel great.  Once I go through my closet, I will list the items I have picked out.

Oh and about that Post Winter Self, well I addressed some of that too.  Last night after putting the kids to bed, I treated myself to some home beauty treatments.  I did a deep conditioning treatment to my hair, plucked my own eyebrows (shocking), and gave myself a pedicure.  As for those extra pound that have collected around my belly and thighs, I have a plan for that too. It is called move your ass and eat less plan. ;o)

Not changing

I had the awesome opportunity to spend a weekend with my friends from college last week.  It came at a time where I was struggling with emotions that were making me feel blocked or stuck even.  The weeks preceding my birthday have marked a season of dealing with grief over the loss of my dad. This year I felt myself experiencing really raw emotions about myself, who I should be and who I wasn't.  I managed to pick myself apart physically for a few weeks. Then I started doubted my self worth and professional abilities.  And of course when you are low, those feeling merge onto those you love most. My mind was spinning negative thoughts, my patience compromised.   Don't get me wrong, I was functioning but there was a numbness.  A deep down feeling of being totally lost.  I continued my devotionals and had some heart felt prayers with God.  I held my tongue when I wanted to spew ugly words at Nick. I kept my eyes on the goal of making it to my girls' weekend. I just knew if I could get to that part, there was resolve coming. Fast forward after spending 2 days with my close friends, those few people who knew me when I wasn't yet a wife, a mom, professional.  Those people who I don't feel the need to put on a image for and with who I can release fully.  They accept me and love me.  They share compliments freely and make me feel good about who I am.  They are connected to my heart and somehow that feeling move the rock that had been sitting on my heart for all those weeks.  You see, they don't want or need me to change.  Let me say that again, I don't need to change!

 On Sunday, I left looking forward to being with my family especially Nick. While there is not magic pill to absolve all those feelings, I am headed towards a path of more self love and acceptance.  I feel like God has blessed me with the tools I need to make a great life and I just need to wipe off the dust to see it.

Have a great weekend!