I love that Blogger does not erase your blog no matter how much you neglect it! It has been about a year since I have blogged, so hard to believe! As I may have mentioned, I left my job with Navy in December 2014 and started with a different federal agencies. The transition was tough at time and while I am sure I am not fully acclimated, I feel a lot more confident and settled.
When I say tough, I mean character is questioned, people throwing you under the bus, and you end up with Shingles tough. I am so lucky that I had people who believed in me and supported me a long the way. I also had to really self examine and realize what worked for me before just wasn't going to cut it in my new job.
Getting Shingles was a big deal to me, I realized how much I was being physically impacted by the stress and I am sure I was no prize with my family. I was almost ready to leave, as in called my old boss and cried "uncle." However, something just didn't feel right about that decision, like I was giving up and that is just not who I am. So I made a choice, I was not longer going to work so hard to impress people. I was going to work hard and as long as I knew God saw me, that would be enough. I humbled myself in the areas where I knew I was lacking and built up those skills. Again, I am sure not "there" yet but the way I feel and the feedback I have received is so very different.
In addition to work, I made some decisions regarding my health. I have known for some time that exercise is my release. It is my time to reflect and work out emotions, a break from the day. So I started exercising again at lunch and it has made such a difference in my outlook, my anxiety is almost gone and overall I feel better.
So what's the point? Well for me, it is that I can't give up when faced with a challenge. If you do, you don't know what is waiting on the other side. And take care of yourself! Wives and mothers work so hard to care for their families and homes, that they are left short. You can only do this for so long because eventually it will catch up...in an illness, in turmoil at home...something.
I hope to blog occasionally as another way of releasing emotions in safe way. Happy Sunday and Happy Fall Y'all!
